Why does this phrase stick with me so much? It's still true that " I can not do anything more for Aurelia. Period."
My other thought from reviewing this post was that I never wrote down what my real fear was. My real fear was that Chiron would be dead too. That they would go for fetal heart tones or a non-stress test and there would be nothing. I honestly think it was over three weeks before I stopped thinking he was dead everytime they hooked the monitors up (which was several times a day).
I love that he was " galloping like a good centaur".
So, is there such a thing as a normal day-to-day experience type blog with a minor side of dead baby? Is that a field? Or just something to disturb the other dead baby seekers (because of the everyday banalities of the rest of my life) and the normal blog readers (because of said dead baby).
We shall see.